UPDATED 09/07/2K9

To-do list! NOT THAT ANYONE ELSE IS READING (hi! if you are) but. XD This is by no means a complete or even that comprehensive list -- I change my mind and my whims constantly, but this is at least something I can look at to remind myself "oh hey, that needs to get done eventually."

Most (but NOT all) of these will be posted publically; if you're curious about seeing what isn't (the porn and the original Catfish-related stuff), please check out this post and ask to be added to the appropriate filter(s). :) Please also be sure to actually comment, because, uh, I don't honestly check this post that often. Just FYI. :|b

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ORIGINAL:

Il Carnevale del Lupo
Fairytaleverse (east of the sun/west of the moon)
Catfish (GHOST STORY)

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ASAP (i.e., challenges/obligations/hey-that's-shiny):

Birthday mathoms

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I WANT TO I WANT TO I WANT TO I WAAAAAANT TO:

• More wishful thinking, but I want a (longlonglong) plottastic Dresden Files/Supernatural crossover. And none of the TV show, I want the bookverse with all its twists and mythologies and Mouse in it. I-if only I could write for either of them. :(
  
• Stuff for Triple Strike! Now that the story's hit my personal favorite arc of the whole thing, I want to write sidestories and supplements as Sharky whips out the main canon. :|b
  
• MORE GENDERSWITCH. Guys, guys, you have little idea how incredibly fun I find it. :\b
  

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BACKBURNER (most of these are started, and just need to be eventually finished):

• Kingdom Hearts (2)/Silent Hill, "All Falls Silent": AHAHAHAHAHAH OSHI-
  
• Raikou/Kantarou 50 sentences, set Delta
  
• Fullmetal Alchemist, "Ratio Air to Fire": this is supposed to be Roy/Ed?!
  
• Fullmetal Alchemist, "Heavy the Crown": Sequel to "And Home Once More." Would eventually be Roy/Ed. Dear self: please write the part between the beginning and the end, which you already have both of.
  
• GetBackers, "Retrieve the Forgotten Gaze!": FINISH THIS DAMNIT. ... but first, edit the hell out of it, augh.
  
• Kingdom Hearts/2, Alex cornerverse, the SEQUEL OF DOOM: all I know is that I want to call the first part "The Gates of Horn and Ivory." HAHAHAH WHAT A SUCK.
  

I feel better when my to-do lists have things already crossed off. SEE ME PRETEND TO BE A FUNCTIONAL

* Do dishes
* Sort papers to shred/recycle
* take out recyling
* Clean fridge
* Do laundry
* socialize???
* grocery shopping!
* overtime
* switch bill-paying information to new account
* YULETIDE fffffff I didn't know it was due Monday /o\
* ... actually, let's just say that I should dedicate several hours to writing this weekend; THE END OF THE YEAR SNUCK UP ON ME!
* ... canon-review

* CLIP MERLIN'S CLAWS (ow)
* clean catbox
* change filter for water
* take out trash
* review finances
* ... post ...

GO GO GO, SELF! YOU CAN DO IT, SELF! YOU HAVE AN ENTIRE WEEKEND AHEAD OF YOU!

... I'm adding other chores to this list just so I can cross them out. :|a

So I was having a really horrible morning to start out with, on top of a week that has (already) not been super-great! And I probably would have whined about it and it would have taken me like a week or so to get to the "this is actually very humorous" stage of coping. I WAS GRUMPY! I HATED EVERYTHING!

But then actualize and darknightrain made it better.

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So, guys! As is fairly clearly obvious if you even skim this journal for a single month (given how infrequently I post, haha), it is really obvious that this is primarily a fic-posting journal! Which is all well and good, because I am entirely too scatterbrained/lazy/etc to actual handle having a separate journal for LIFE vs FANDOM. I've tried it before in the past. So this means I have people from online and offline reading this. (HELLO EVERYONE.)

Onnnnn the other hand, I am sort of wondering about doing away with some of my writing filters, or--barring that--setting up a separate area for the stuff I would normally filter. (So currently, my original fiction, minus whatever I write for imaginarybeasts, and anything nswf.) I have been toying with setting up WordPress on my sob sob over two years neglected website, and WordPress does have an option for password-locking entries. It's not a perfect system, but it might help me clean my flist a bit, as well as put a bit more separation between my life (and the people who're less interested in seeing that stuff from me XD) and these things.

Or should I just do away with these things altogether, since I write more original fic than nsfw stuff, and I feel kind of bad for the people who're asking to be added to these filters when ... there's almost thing on them. 8( (It's not necessarily that I don't even want to write it, because sometimes I'm like I HAVE AN IDEA FOR THESE THINGS WHICH ARE POSSIBLY BUT MAYBE NOT QUESTIONABLE I SHOULD WRITE IT-- and then I get distracted. I do so very easily.) I would still be keeping a filter for original stuff (again, minus imaginarybeasts, ps guys the theme this time is APOCALYPSE/DISTOPIA, you know you want to write it). And I will probably start redoing tags, though that will take forever lollllllll.

I AM TORN. THERE IS NO RIGHT ANSWER. IS THERE EVEN A MAJORITY RULE, I DON'T KNOW.

Thoughts/suggestions/porn prompts go here. --v

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Word Count: 1590
Subjects: 07-Ghost and ... Vocaloid original fantasy thingy knockoff stuff

Excerpt: After the meal, the girl is bathed again, this time in water that is scented with lavender and lilac. Luka's mother again bathes the girl herself, and now she is telling the girl to be brave, to be strong, to be proud of the honor that has been bestowed upon her and her family, to be chosen to sing for the great dragon. Her family will be paid handsomely. They will be as nobility in the eyes of the kingdom. Every wish they have will be granted. All she has to do is to be brave and sing.

In the mirror, the girl's face changes finally from its blank face. For just a moment, Luka sees life in those huge staring eyes, and it is full of anger, hot enough to match the breath of the dragon itself. She blinks and it's gone. She wonders if she imagined it.

Thoughts: actualize is one of my favorites. Kyaa kyaa kyaa, dragons and epic fantasy are exciting. :D This playlist is exactly two songs long and I'm still excited, that is probably a good sign!

OTHER THINGS:

* Saw The Princess and the Frog with people on Friday! I WAS THOROUGHLY SATISFIED. (Kudos to you, Disney, for having a) a character who was a spoiled brat but still a good person and b) two girls who were friends and interested in the same guy, but neither was bitchy or snipey or tried to steal him from the other.)

* Baked cheetos are delicious, sob. I CAN'T STOP EATING THEM, I need to brush my teeth so I will.

* Trader Joe's dark chocolate oranges are divineeeeeeeeee. This possibly should have gone with the previous point.

* THIS STUPID GAME IS SO MUCH FUN. 8( I played for hours today and hours yesterday and now I think I'm on the final boss?! Maybe? But fffff I WANT MY TEN SEED SLOTS, HOW CAN I WIN THAT MUCH MONEY WITHOUT MORE MINI-GAMES AND PUZZLES. D<

* I have this desire to reread the Earl Cain series, only I can't find my copies. :( I owned all of Godchild and all but ... one? two? of the original series, so this is very sad. I started Eve fic, but I wanted to immerse myself to get into the right mindset. CURSE YOU, DISORGANIZATION!

* ... I was going to clean this weekend, but then Plants vs Zombies happened. Oops.

... hmmmmmm.

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nighttime [07-Ghost]
1061 words
Frau, Bastien. This is somehow babychan's fault, even though I wasn't on IRC at all tonight. :( Also, I need Bastien + tiny!Frau icons. Hrm hrm. :|a

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THE HEATER IN MY APARTMENT DOESN'T WORK. \o/

Trying to update and code things becomes 100000x harder when your fingers are freezing. :(

ETA TO FIX THAT STUPID TYPO IN THE TITLE man can I say that's because of the cold too. :(

ETA2: THEY FIXED IT! \o/ The people who run my apartment are amazing. :(b

What is this, I have lj gifts somehow.

YOU GUYS ♥♥♥♥;;;;;;;;

I don't have an appropriately dere enough icon for this. 8(

SUCCESS!
Because these posts tend to be so short, I have decided to skip cutting. Unless I have a lot to say in a particular week, I'll continue leaving them as-is.

Word Count: 3609
Subjects: Original

Excerpt: You know how they say when a cat lives to be a certain age, its tail splits into two, and it becomes a totally different creature? It becomes a demon that can make the dead dance and bow to its whims. There's a faster way to do this, though, and bind the resultant creature to you. Take a black cat that is exactly three months old and not a second older or younger, and tie a ribbon around its neck. Red is the traditional color. Tie the other end of that ribbon to your wrist and lift it up. Let the cat hang. As it goes through its death throes, be careful not to let it scratch you; then you'll have to start all over. While it dies, exactly as its last breath leaves its body, be sure to look straight into its eyes. Say its name (its *true* name, mind you, the one that is so difficult to get out of cats--they're secretive bastards, worse than even foxes, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise) as it fades.

If you did it right, the cat will start to squirm again after it dies. You can let it go at this point. In fact, it's better that you do, because cats don't like to be held like that, and it's a lot more powerful than it used to be. So let it go, and if it tries to attack you, use its name to keep it in its place. That's how you'll command it for the rest of your life, by using its true name. Raise the dead to torment your enemies! Create an army to conquer your village with! Make certain that the guest lists at your parties are always full! Isn't that nice? They have so many uses!

Thoughts: Given that it's The first week after NaNo, I would say that's not too bad! I wrote half of it Monday (for the final NaNo push) and half of it today, so I'm not too concerned. THINGS IN MY LIFE have been going on, so we'll have to see where my productivity goes, but at least for now, I will continue trucking on. \o/;;

I AM TOO LAZY TO DO DO CODING FOR THE "NANO WINNER" THING. THEREFORE:

50311 / 50000 words. 101% done!

I could have done better, I know; there were some times where I was just being lazy--and there were times where I was just completely uninspired, or tired, or any number of things. But I made it, and that also counts for a SUCCESS for week twenty-one of my "write at least 1000 words a week for a year" self-challenge. NOT TOO BAD.

Stats-wise, I entirely finished fourteen different pieces this month. The most impressive part about this is that a big chunk of them were actually either completely original ficiton, or close enough to completely original to skirt that line. Some of them I will be posting under the NaNo filter I made--I'm sorry I didn't post a whole lot during this past month, BUT I FIGURE PEOPLE WOULD UNDERSTAND. :'D

AND HERE IS THE FIRST ONE! This is my piece for imaginarybeasts, whose theme for Book #18 was winter.

I wrote The Disappearence of Granny Winter and managed to submit my story early enough to get a gorgeous illustration by adadochka, kyaa kyaa. *_* I hope you'll read and enjoy it! \o/

Ahhhh, I feel pretty good. |D I'm proud of me for making it, and for finishing stuff, and for writing as much original fiction as I did. :3 CONGRATS TO EVERYONE ELSE WHO MADE IT, and congrats to everyone who tried and had fun. YAY NANO 09 \m/

Thanksgiving was really nice. :) (Thanks again to katmaxwell for putting me up for the day!) Low-key and a lot of it was spent being underfoot in the kitchen and/or laughing at the failure of the cats (I wish I could've brought Merlin, but he's sort of turned into Mister I Hate Everyone But Mom) and watching bad TV/video games. IT WAS REALLY NICE TO RELAX and take it easy for a bit, especially since I've been so incredibly braindead this entire week. In some ways, I am actually grateful that I don't have overtime tomorrow--while the extra money would have been really nice, I think I'll take it as time to recharge. All I really need to do is wait for the Comcast guy will finally come and fix the dead cable box. (I have determined that I don't mind living alone so much if I can have the background noise of people talking--music is really nice to keep the silence from getting too overwhelming, but there's a different sort of rhythm to talking vs singing, and that's what I miss the most about having a roommate, I think.)

... I also need to get back to writing, because ffffff I am behind. /o\

Also I think I need to make a resolution to stop making disparaging generalizations. I know I still do it at times, and given how much it irritates when it happens to me, I need to make an effort to do it myself and be fair. :|b If anyone sees me doing it, please feel free to yell at me a lot.

You know, occasionally I realize that sometimes I wish I was--silly enough, or pretentious enough, or teenager enough--to do some of those things that I really want to do, and then talk myself out of. :|a Mostly this involves JOURNAL POSTS THAT ARE ONLY LYRICS!! BECAUSE THEY REALLY HAVE REAL MEANINGS GUYS!! even when a lot of the time it's just because I really like a particular line or whatever. \o_O/ I suppose that's why I have twitter, but there's only so often you can do that, too, before someone decides to take a mallet to your virtual kneecaps.

[UNPOPULAR OPINION] Okay so also a part of me is kind of irritated at the condescending "oh isn't that cute" attitude I sometimes get from my friends for liking singing robots when they're going mad over Lady GaGa. Who I don't listen to, so I cannot judge, but dude, some of the stuff I've heard off nicodouga would rival any of the pro stuff I've heard, too, and I am vaguely :\ over people cooing over how crazy/bizarre/talented/etc their pop stars are, but then are like "oh, you" if mine even get mentioned. Just because the vocals sometimes come from a synthesized program doesn't mean that the whole thing was computer-generated, and gods and fishes know there are real live human covers of robot songs that are more popular in the ratings than the original. I think this is part of why I feel so apathetic to trying to listen to Lady Gaga--I understand she's actually really good, but I'd rather give my love and attention to my "silly" singing robot fandom, which I don't think is always as silly as people act. My irritation, let me punch someone in the face with it, even if it's just myself. [/UNPOPULAR OPINION]*

Though on the musical note, I need to remember to see if there's an mp3 available of the chorus cover of Butter-fly I found last night, because damn, that was a nostalgic kick and a half. DIGIMON, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A SOFT SPOT IN MY HEART FOR YOU!

I didn't get any writing done yesterday, but man, I was so incredibly dead after a ~DAY~ that really, the fact that I managed to make all the phone calls I had to in order to kickstart repairs and fixing things that need it outside of work is an incredible achievment. CFUD people, I will pick up the chorus post tonight. /o\ THOUGH RELATEDLY, after reading this (courtesy of ysadrel and is an amazing read even for someone who doesn't know WoW, like yours truly), I really want to just. Do a text-based adventure thing and see how well I can do when I'm making things up on the fly. That's actually how I do a lot of creative things, honestly; I have learned that I cannot handle outlines that well, because then I get bored and I'm like BUT I ALREADY WROTE IT! \o_O/ and want to move on. Sob. XD Part of me just wants to make a journal post that is like, YOU WAKE UP HERE, WHERE DO YOU GO FROM THERE. Like every RP ever, only I'd want to do it with those forums where people are just giving (occasionally ridiculous) input and trying to roll with that. It seems like it'd be fun, but I don't know that people would actually be interested in it. WHY CAN'T I GET THE HANG OF FORUMS! [fistshake]

\o_O/ is still my favoritest emoticon ever.

THE END.

* PS: the UNPOPULAR OPINION is not actually meant to specifically call out people. The Vocaloid vs Lady Gaga thing is obviously the current example in my life, but it's really just an example of something that keeps happening. \o_O/ It's part of why I am really starting to hate when people say "but you're so cute!" to/about me, because I honestly feel like I'm not being taken seriously, and it drives me up the wall! SO. While I don't mind being silly and off the wall, I'd like to be taken seriously (and the things I like as a reflection of "hey, I like this unironically") as well.

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Thoughts: CRY SOB CRY--this week has been really bad for me, re: keeping up on things; I just tend to barely make it for the word counts. (I feel like I've said this before, but this week felt worse than others, because I actually DID miss my goal a few times and had a day where I didn't write at all and basically just had to plod and pick my way through a wordcount to catch up.) BUT I AM STILL CAUGHT UP! And that is good. And while I am working for part of the upcoming holiday (if they give me a computer that actually works, that is, sob wireless!), there should still be time to get writing done. \o/

I MIGHT MAKE IT THIS YEAR! THIS IS EXCITING.

wishs.come.true
xxxHolic [Himawari]
1180 words
"Do you believe in other worlds, Himawari-chan?"

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Thoughts: Sooooooob this week! THIS WEEK! I did not get nearly as much done this week as I wanted; most nights, I just pretty much eked past the minimum wordcount for NaNo in the last hour or so before bedtime. ON TOP OF THAT MAYBE I AM GETTING SICK?! Which is kind of sucktastic, but it would explain why I have been kind of dead on trying to get anything done. The thing that really sucks, though, is that I still want to write, I just have been unable to focus properly to pull anything off.

On the other hand, I think I am definitely in the consumptive cycle of my creative output again; I have been reading a ton of manga (m-mostly silly BL but still! mostly reading manga) this past week, and I think it's sort of put me on a I WANT TO WRITE ORIGINAL FIC! BUT ALSO FANFIC! I am finally catching up on xxxHolic, and also I am on this embarrassingly big FukuJun kick like YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE. BUT I HAVE NO DIRECTION! vicious cycle. This is slightly troubling. :|a

But I am on track, writing-wise, so hopefully I will have more to post in the upcoming week. \o/

Today so far, I have:

- Lazed around with my cat lounging on my arm and being the cutest thing ever :'D
- Gone grocery shopping
-- Related: I got strawberry cream puffs :D
- Bought a random dude McDonald's
- Got to say hello to a very nice pitbull service dog
- HAD MY CAT SIT ON MY LAP OF HIS OWN FREE WILL FOR LIKE HALF AN HOUR this is amazing for him, because he likes being around me, but he's not really a lapcat \o/
- Found hibiscus soda, which I got three kinds of (plain, with lime, and with orange)
- Splurged a bit at Kinokuniya, but I found the Pandora Hearts artbook, so it took very little mental convincing for this; I had to reflect that it was very nice to be able to splurge without guilt :x
- I STILL HAVE TRIPLE BAKA STUCK IN MY HEAD. IT NEVER GOES AWAY. EVER. (I thought maybe Pygmalion would replace it, but no.)
- Not written a SINGLE THING ha ha ha ... hahhhhhhh ...
-- Related: I do have a story half-started, though, so maybe it'll actually get somewhere and I'll make count tonight :|a

Also damn, guys, the new sensei singing robot looks like he wandered off of the pages of all the bl manga I have been binging on this week. It's like candy of the very worst sort, filled with things that you know will make you feel queasy later, but you can't stop because there is something about it that is so compelling and then SUDDENLY IT'S HOURS LATER AND YOU ARE LIKE ?! HOW MUCH DID I ACTUALLY DO . . .

And I think I owe people uploads. IF I TOLD YOU I WOULD UPLOAD STUFF FOR YOU OVER THE PAST WEEK, NOW IS THE TIME TO TELL ME, BECAUSE I HAVE TOTALLY FORGOTTEN.

and they won't call me mother, or sister, or wife
904 words
Hetalia
"They will know me or not by the strength of my life / I will burn with a light of my own / They will know me as Joan."

( and they won't call me mother, or sister, or wife )

There's a song with that line, too, and it's hideously catchy. :(

I am in that horrible place where I really want to write! but at the same time, everything I have to write is just ... not pinging me. :( I'm still excited for all of it, especially the yaoi_challenge pieces among the other things I have, but when I try to actually focus on them, my attention goes wandering and my brain decides to get lost on the road to coherency. Even really good ideas and suggestions barely seem to skim the level of my distraction; I would ask for prompts, but I'm afraid of dropping the ball because I would just putter out and be like :V instead. It feels a lot like when you have a horrible craving for one specific food, and while you can and do eat other stuff and you get full from it, it's not nearly as satisfying as getting what you actually wanted, only with the added dimension of WHAT IS IT DO I REALLY WANT, ANYWAY. Help, I have 2000 words to write tonight and NOTHING TO WRITE ABOUT. ;o;

/whines

Man, I feel like I was going to make another point whenever I got around to posting again, but I've forgotten it entirely. Possibly it involved my cat.

I TOTALLY FORGOT TO MAKE THIS POST YESTERDAY. BUT YOU KNOW.

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